POP LOH! hahaha or rather poC-ed loh. it went like this, stoned for the whole day, waited till 4 in the afternoon, sat in a room, collected an envelope with no content inside cause the cetificates were locked up in the comps room -_-. after that had some buffet dinner prepared by THE COOKHOUSE (i think,) then home.
LAME RIGGHT.
though it was good in a no-dignity-no-pride kind of way, cause there was no preparation at all. HAHAHA.

genting tomorrowww!! hahahah FUCKING EXCITED. can't wait.

someone reminded me with the cliche phrase that life ain't always that bed of roses. i retorted that we should try harder.
another told me that i have serious abandonment issues (not how you think it to be) and i never learn from my mistakes. hahah. i couldn't help but agree. but i retorted that it doesn't happen frequently, the fact that i'm more or less always happy.
its always when you're trying hard and it goes the total opposite way, you start to wonder whether its worth you effort. it dawned on me that sometimes there are things that should just be left alone. not saying that they are not worth the effort to try harder, but there's only this much one can try before the tip is hit. every effort thereafter you will realise its all wasted in the end when you hit the rocks and the facade drops. there are certain things that can progress only up to some level and no more. and the more you expect out of whats past the level, the higher the disappointment. some things are better off that way. lesser expectations and all.

gotta know where i'm standing, who's gonna stand bu me, and who i should stand by with.

sounds familar eh? hahaha told you i never learn.

haven't actually felt disappointment in such intensity for quite some time. quite comparable to the times when i got to know about my As results and the other one time in j1.
i'm not someone cut out for intense emotions.
and im surprised at how affected i am.
fuck it.

gp was a total killer i swear i nearly died doing it hahaha. owell there goes my pretty A. the worst part of the whole ordeal wasn't actually the paper itself, it was the going in into VJC to do that stupid few pieces of paper hahaha zoomg nearly died trying to find the place to report to couldn't stand the freaking millions eyes on me wanted to sit down so badly (cannot stand it mah HAHAHAHA). i was like a stray animal that got lost in the some rich animal place. zommg could have totally killed them all. hahaha. swear their stares could kill a thousand times over and over.

'i'm pretty quick to say i love you to people, cause i don't want them to run away.' - PAPER HEART

jealousy is a pretty quick cheating emotion that creeps up to you in a secret fashion and stabs you right at the back in the spine and makes you go shrivelling all the way up to your brains. =))

zomggg gp's driving me crazyy. complacency kills, major big time. attempted (still attempting actually HAHAHA) to do one comprehension and i totally forgot how to reconstruct my sentences. couldn't find any suitable words for substitute, stonned (still stoning) and practically got all my answers wrong ZOMGGGG. =(((( let's not talk about compo okayyyy. can't imagine. hurhurhur.
anyhow, even though its kind of random and uninteresting and totally none of anyone else's business, i'm totally fucked and confused right now. hahhaa. the probability of me thinking wayy too much is 99.9999999%. but certain actions that should be condemmed seemd to be condoned. why why why why why why why ME. 
OMFGGGG hahah im talking in codes that only I understand.

i'm high from stoning and from digressing from gp.

BABY TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS CRAZY PLACE

woah woah! good luck guys! for your As.:)
go own your papers man. own them big time.


anyhow, do i have temper issues? i would like to think that im a very mild tempered boy. hehhehheh.
some analboy told me i should go for anger management.
me? anger management? HA.
and and, am having this nice feeling that everything's falling nicely into place.
you know, all the emotions, decisons, thoughts and everything else they seem to be all sorted out. all at the right place, not going haywire, fucking clear-headed now. brain's telling all the right things to do.
ain't complaining, ain't complaining at this point of time, cause it's exactly what i need. to get my priorities right, and not screw things up by being dumb.

i'm stubborn and i know it.